Ludvigson Lace Lady: Such pain, it was.
Hummer: What pain are you talking about? You’ve had everything from Swimmer’s Ear pain to back pain to multiple types of surgery recovery pain. Which are you referring to?
Click here for “Life is Lovelier with Lace. . . And the Left Turn”
Ludvigson Lace Lady: None of those. Although each one you mentioned – and even more – was very painful. The pain I am speaking of is the pain of infertility.
Hummer: Oh, yes. You had heartbreaking pain. I remember.
Ludvigson Lace Lady: I had it then. I have it now. And I am quite certain I will have it in the future.
Hummer: What can you mean? Infertility is long gone, for you. You’re old now! You aren’t hoping to conceive still?
Ludvigson Lace Lady: Of course not! I had a hysterectomy, you know!
Hummer: Oh, yes. I forgot! And you were rather young for that type of surgery!
Ludvigson Lace Lady: I sure was! In my 30’s. But I was ready for a uterus removal, nonetheless! Such pain! Endometriosis pain!
Hummer: No details, please. It was a gory period of time, I do recall. And rather regular!
Ludvigson Lace Lady: Yes! Every three weeks. Terrible abdominal pain and blood loss. Delirious. I would venture to say, it was similar to labor pain! Only no baby to hold, in the end. A monthly miscarriage.
Hummer: That must have been unbearable.
Ludvigson Lace Lady: I am thankful to be done with it. There is a time when a hysterectomy is necessary.
Hummer: That’s for sure.
Ludvigson Lace Lady: But the pain of Endometriosis was small compared to the pain of infertility, which accompanies it!
Ludvigson Lace Lady: Yes. And I remember my frustration when researching Endometriosis back in the ’80’s, that the cure for it the Big E, as I called it, was to get pregnant.
Hummer: You mean the Big E’s cure is pregnancy; and the Big E causes infertility, meaning pregnancy won’t happen? Isn’t that an oxymoron?
Ludvigson Lace Lady: I sure thought so! And it was like pouring salt on my wound.
Hummer: So with the infertility struggle, you experienced physical and emotional pain, simultaneously?
Ludvigson Lace Lady: Exactly. And, those baby showers reigned weekly, in those youthful years! Devastating, to say the least. But I tried to remember to live by the scriptural truth, weep with those who weep, rejoice with those who rejoice.
Hummer: That was a difficult time for sure.
Ludvigson Lace Lady: And as I was then spending more time collecting energy to rejoice through an aching infertile heart, now in my later years of life, I find myself weeping with those infertile, who are weeping as I had been. My painful memories have not faded. They are as real today as they were in the day of the experience.
Hummer: I suppose the soon coming Mother’s Day celebration might be a time when tender memories reemmerge?
Ludvigson Lace Lady: Yes. My heart feels a double portion of the bittersweet. For God has truly blessed me to be a mother of four adopted boys. But for those young ladies who are empty-armed on Mother’s Day, my heart still breaks. I remember the pain. I grieve afresh with them.
Hummer: Mother’s Day. It is right and good to spend time honoring mothers. This we should do, for sure.
Ludvigson Lace Lady: But also include those who are wanting to be mothers, but are not. Yet.
Hummer: Yes! So easily accomplished! A rose can be given to the infertile, waiting woman along with the fertile mom holding multiple babes. This would be in the typical Sunday church service.
Click here for “Life is Lovelier with Lace. . . And the Male Delivery”
Ludvigson Lace Lady: That is the best way to handle Mother’s Day Sundays. A floral bouquet can be an encouragement for both fertile and infertile ladies als
God never wastes the painful experienes of life. And that is true with infertility. And He has not wasted the pain I felt. I truly weep with those who weep on Mother’s Day.
Hummer: And I am glad you do. I know it encourages the others who are weeping. And God’s comfort flows through you to them. It’s God’s way.
Life is Lovelier with Lace…
This is so true. I suffered, so that I can share in the suffering of others. And in doing so, the suffering ones are encouraged. And that is good.
While crocheting lace, I do my best to bring these desperate feelings to the Lord. The threads and my hook are intertwined in prayer! And that is a lovely thing! Producing a lovely thing!
Enjoy my lacey items in my shop! And please know that with every stitch, my heart understands and prays for the infertile ladies. Especially on Mother’s Day.
Weeping with my precious weepers,
Ludvigson Lace Lady
LUDVIGSON LACE ♡ Aftcra
A portion of LUDVIGSON LACE proceeds will be donated to Lila Rose/Live Action, in defense of Life: http://www.liveaction.org
My Shop: http://www.aftcra.com/ludvigsonlace
My Website: ludvigsonlace.simdif.com
My Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/TimDebbieLudvigson
My Blog: ludvigsonlace.wordpress.com